29/02/2012 coming back.

hey guys. how are you?! hehe yeah its February 29, 2012. and so i feel blessed to be alive today. well, it isn't so special but just to say that i'm thankful that i'm still alive. and that's all. i'm goin to be thankful everyday too after all. yeah. 

okay, to begin with, i was watching tons of videos on youtube and today i was so attached to JinnyboyTV's channel. and it was great. i meant the videos. one of the videos that i love the most was "Abuden". really hilarious and i just keep on laughing every time i watch it. come and watch it. you can follow his twitter @Jinnyboy  and from this channel, it leads me to this awesome video of Jayesslee. korean twin raised in Australia, Sonia and Janice. one of the youtube sensation nowadays. well, obviously they had started doing the cover songs thingy back in 2008. five years ago, starting only on their pajamas and now here they are hotsetuff!! hehe.. they surely are so cute. really.

whats making me interested about this twins is not just about their great voices but the impact they gave me after i heard the astonishing and great stories about their life that they had shared. it is not often that we find someone who are showing to the world that "owh, yeah i have good relationship with God!.". for real, and moreover, as an artist. not just that they seems to be modest but they're just great! actually i'd never watch their videos and covers before but as i try to remember, yeah i'd seen one. hahaha my bad, flora gave me a link back then years ago and so much as i was much too arrogant, i didn't even watch it and i gave, "owh, its just nice. but mine is better.". hahaha what i meant by "mine" was actually the singer that i like back then like david choi and sam tsui. i also gave some links of song to defeat my sis. hahaha so childish! but so, as i remember about it, i was just a fool. really. hahaha...they are so great. hotsetuff! ahaha kidding. 

back to the story, they shared about their life and it was so adorable to hear such things. i don't know if i say all of this so accurate but i guess this is how i remember about it. sorry if it is not correct. just watch it yourself. there is a link below. they told about their childhood which were going on so great just until their mother were diagnostic to have breast cancer. and so as children, they don't even understand about cancer and stuff. but their mom kept on showing to them good examples. as they actually started to turn away from God because, "if God is so good, why would He gave us so many difficulties, making our mother that way." but their mom kept on smiling and thanking God for everything. when they were in high school, they attended some camp i guess and there one night they both started to pray to God. and so fortunate they were encountered by God. which were soothing and comforting them, making them felt to be cared and understand. telling them, "trust me, believe me, i understand  about you," and so they understand about everything happened to them. they begun to thanking God for everything. they realize that God is real. and so that night, they received a phone call from their dad, asking them to come back to the hospital where their mom was. and they were told that their mom only have 2 weeks to go. but their mother was so bold and strong. instead of getting sad or down, she even looks stronger and happier. and as both Sonia and Janice already knew about it, they went on starting to pray and thanking God for everything. then when her mother was about to go away, they were rejoicing singing some korean christian song about, "i give my life to you, take my life as it is for who i am..." something like that la. their mother raised her hand drew her last breath and and so she left both Janice and Sonia smilling. this the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1j6bxhlgXkU&feature=related

THE JAYESSLEE

i'm actually speechless when i watched the video as i didn't expected it to be that. so religious? and i kinda like it. i use to watch videos about Christianity and stuff made by Christians at least out side of malaisie. imagine how i feel, you are watching some singer and then suddenly you hear they are talking about going back to God. it really touched me. goosebumps everywhere. owh man. while people keep on saying that we the christian people are kind of fake. it actually did gave me a very bad impact on my life. as i too started to go away. just like Sonia and Janice. and so, i realize that i don't want to be remind by God through a tragic experiences, like they had gone through. so, before this kind of thing happen, i realize that i have to change, now. I have to be certain that God is real and He had been watching us for all this while. no matter what people said about us, Christian, we just have to be close to God. whatever they are, what they said, the most important thing is to believe. we always have these seminars and the praise and worship things going on. some get the holy spirit and they were actually a true facts that God is real. and he is always with us. we are just so near to God but just after some people saying we're fake, and you just lost your faith. easily. more than once did i ever putting Jesus away from my life, and so i felt so ashamed with myself. i did went away, telling myself. "this is not the right thing.". but it is real. now that i know. i'd seen how God had come to help me and people in the world, but still my faith is so timid. i'm ashamed with myself. 

life is so short. living our life today as if there are no tomorrow. cherish our life. i don't care about what people going to say about me after this. despite whatever religion they are, the most important thing is to be close to God. no matter what religion you are in. there is no need to make other feel horrible by giving comments, criticize and stuff. they were worthless and useless.  whatever happened back then, whether there were wrongdoings done by christians, they were normal. no one is perfect. obviously. but yeah, the most important thing is ourselves. be a good example to the world. you are what you are in. if you're christian, show to the world how a christian should be. same thing happen to the other religion believers. don't just think about criticizing other. that would never show the good side of your religion anyway. it is just not respectful to other human. we are still human though with different religion. all we have to do is just to show to the world that "i'm this (religion that you are in)". and show how great you are. if other are attracted and ever think of converting into the religion that you are in. then, it is great!. don't you think so? but never expect things to be so easy. and i'm aware of it too, but this is how life is. and so, make your life as you want them to be. your life is who you are. 

okay, i did speak too much for today. but i just feel that i only write these for 5 minutes? hahaha excited to discover that i'm coming back. i feel alive. i don't know why. but i'm not going to be so bombastic, but i'll just come in silent. people always get annoyed with me but i don't care. as far as i know. i had done nothing bad to them. i'm proud? it is just that i can't be so social. and that's all. for real. URM..janice and sonia shared this song too..just if you want to hear them. this is the lyric.

Title : Dare You To Move

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?


I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before


Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be


I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened


Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here


I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

it just shows that move on and you can't escape your life. live in it. k, then~